2013 – Full Snow Moon

Well, having my contract conclude with state of Maine early, I’m on the job hunt again. I’d like to believe that it had nothing to do with me going home for Samhain and my wife’s surgery but it’s coincidental that after I put up the new software release and was preparing to leave for the airport the program manager came in and thanked me for my good work but said the contract wouldn’t be continued when I returned.

They (the state) from the start was evasive about how long the contract would last. They originally said six months. Then, when I got to Maine at the end of July they said the end of September. Then it was supposed to extended for three months but was changed to the end of November. Then changed to the first week of December (maybe). Then apparently they changed their collective mind again.

The stupid thing is I’ve had three interviews since then for software development positions with three other departments (including the one I was under contract to) for software analyst/developer positions.

Anyone else out there need a computer geek / software developer?

In the meantime, I’m enjoying my ‘retirement.’

Untitled-1Well, not really. But if asked we will interpret your dream for you at no charge.

A friend of ours asked us to interpret a dream she had. Below is our analysis of this dream.

We (Kris and I) were in a pole type barn, where the back is enclosed and the front is open but very tall. There was a very long strange semi parked in the front of the barn in a half moon shape around the front of the open part of the barn. It was parked sooo close to the sides, I kept being concerned it would hit the sides. There were sections in the truck bed part, it was open from the bottom to the top (the sides were open) almost like it was for a traveling act or something. But I did not see anything that would concrete that.

Any time you see a structure that is central to your dream, it represents yourself—think of your body as a building with many rooms where the doors open onto different facets of your psyche.

The semi-truck in your dream represents feelings of weighted down or that you are doing more than your fair share. A semi-trailer can also symbolize size and power. But in this case since it was parked so close to the barn (yourself), I suggest that this rather large truck represents something (or someone) who is impinging upon your feelings of well-being. Also the fact that it was parked in a semi-circle or half-moon shape or that there was a half-moon shape on the barn and the fact that Kris was there is reminiscent of the High Priestess in the Tarot.

The High Priestess tells you to trust your hunches and to spend time meditating upon the meaning of your dreams. You should look for coincidences (actually synchronicities) while you go about your daily business.

Me and Kris helped the man (loud deep voice) unknown man (had a beard) put something on the truck towards the front in the back, there was a huge semi tires above our heads diagonally.  I grabbed Kris and told her I did not like the way the tire looked and for us to get out. I was gasping for air for real I was aware of this but did not want to wake up. Felt like choking.

The fact that you didn’t want to wake up and thus didn’t tells me that what you experienced is something called a lucid dream. A lucid dream is a dream where you know that you’re dreaming and to some extent, control your dream.

The bearded man represents your animus or the male energy within yourself. He could also represent a strong male figure in your life. The package, which you and Kris lifted onto the truck bed, indicates a problem or issue in your life that you may be repressing or ignoring. You in effected packed it away. Notice that you packed it upon the truck, which was blocking or endangering the barn (yourself).

Seeing tires in a dream may signify that it’s time to release the past and move on. Yet in this dream you are afraid of the tires.

So you jump off the truck and it leaves. This is a visual metaphor literally missing the boat of a new opportunity. You see the truck as “dangerous” so when it leaves taking the missed opportunity with it you are back in your comfort zone.

A choking sensation in a dream in a dream can suggest several things. In this case, I believe that you are ‘choking’ on your inhibitions, not fully following your aspirations or perhaps you are ‘choking’ back your opinions and emotions.

The truck started moving and it was dangerous or I felt danger, so we walked above the barn in a field. It was dusk and I was just able to see things. There were chairs around this little table? Or a log set up like a small side table next to Kris. I was sitting to Kris’s left. The table was closer to her. I asked her if she was afraid the truck would destroy the barn she grabbed a domino but larger looking thing with a picture what looked like a tree on it. I could not make the picture out as it was dusk and I was focusing on the fact as well I was unable to breathe. She said it was protected by …. I did not make the rest out of what she said. On the side of the table/log was a tic tac toe looking board but had more columns long ways and she placed the domino thing on the board and it stayed. There was also another domino thing in the space above the one she put.

In this part of your dream, Kris signifies the high-priestess and the dominos you see are actually runes. See my remarks below regarding the act of having your runes read. So, the domino was actually a rune. You said that the ‘domino’ had a symbol on it like a tree. In the Elder Futhark, the rune which most looks like a tree is the rune, Algiz. Algiz is a protection rune (which may be the protection for the barn which Kris was speaking of when you asked her about the truck harming the barn.) What this means is that you shouldn’t fear this new opportunity, which has withdrawn for the time being but will present itself again.  

 The symbol you saw may have looked like the image to the left. This stylized tree represents Yggdrasil, the Norse tree of life. Yggdrasil is analogous to the Kabbalistic tree of the ten sephiroths.

“Yggdrasil is an immense ash tree that is central and considered very holy. The gods go to Yggdrasil daily to assemble at their things. The branches of Yggdrasil extend far into the heavens, and the tree is supported by three roots that extend far away into other locations; one to the well Urðarbrunnr in the heavens, one to the spring Hvergelmir, and another to the well Mímisbrunnr. Creatures live within Yggdrasil, including the wyrm (dragon) Níðhöggr, an unnamed eagle, and the stags Dáinn, Dvalinn, Duneyrr and Duraþrór.” –Wikipedia

Yggdrasil is Odin’s tree and a symbol of power and courage that encourages you to be bold in your endeavors and follow your just now developing psychic instincts.

The other remaining domino (rune) which you couldn’t quite make out is your yet unfolded future. The runes, the tarot, and other divinations impel, they do not compel; you still have the free will to listen to this advice and act on it or ignore it should you choose to do so.   

 I was gasping

See above: choking.

 

She said some things but they were not able to be understood because I was gasping, she then said as I heard people approach “here comes ? and Thomas” “he will read your runes” The man had a beard and dark hair but not the same as the first man. I assume he sat on my left. There was conversation but I was not able to make out anything because I was not breathing and trying to get a breath.

 

Having your runes read in a dream depicts magick in your life. You are following the lead of the High Priestess (Kris), listening to your intuition, and following your fate.

She had some things there with names on them. She passed me a pen with a symbol on it and the name LEO I assumed it was for the man next to me as this was not my name.

To see a pen in a dream signifies communication either written or spoken or perhaps some other form of self-expression. The name Leo and the symbol (I’m assuming your sub-conscious probably meant the astrological symbol for Leo), wasn’t the name of bearded man #2 (another expression of your animus) but rather the astrological sign, Leo.

 

Leo’s are courageous and outgoing—their symbol is a lion so draw your own conclusions from that as to their fearless nature. Leo’s are also creative and like to be center-stage believing themselves to be the rulers of the universe.   

Woke up gasping.

When you are in discomfort in a dream, it’s not unusual to wake up with a start.

Well, not really but it makes for an interesting catch line.

The magic square of the Sun’s six rows and columns add up to 111 producing a sum of 666. The Sun therefore resonates with the number 666 or taking the Cartesian product of 6662 or 443,556. Using Kabalistic reduction 443556 becomes 4 + 4 + 3 + 5 + 5 + 6 = 27 = 2 + 7 = 9.

Sun-Magic Square

Nine is the number of leadership (well, the sun is the head of solar system—probably why they call it the solar system) and humanitarianism. Nine is also the number of completion just as all nine in the pip cards of the Tarot symbolize the ending of a cycle and reaping the rewards of your efforts. The ninth card of the Tarot is the hermit.

 

The hermit has withdrawn from the mundane to search for the truth of the universe, but like the sun, he doesn’t hide his lamp rather he shines it from a prominence just as the sun shines from above illuminating everything below. It could further be stated that without the life-giving rays from above no manifestation of life below on Earth would be possible: as above, so below.

 

The ninth rune is Hagalaz. Hagalaz signals a major shift of energies as the Elder Futhark begins its second row of aetts. Hagalaz is the rune of objective confrontation with past patterns. It will uncover the vast flow of energies around and through human energy systems. Its nature is completely impersonal and it represents power generally beyond human ability to harness. In some ways this rune is much like The World or Wheel of Fortune tarot cards as those cards also indicate powerful forces at work but largely forces which may not be influenced by human behavior.

 

Some numerical coincidences of the number 666; and I don’t believe in coincidences are that the Tropic of Cancer is 66.6 degrees from the North pole, the Tropic of Capricorn is 66.6 degrees from the South Pole, the Equator is 66.6 degrees from the Arctic and Antarctic circles, and the Earth’s average orbital speed is 66,666 miles per hour (99.9%).

 

To complete the reduction, we can take the square root of nine (remember 666 was squared to give 443556.) That of course leaves us with 3. The Empress (the Empress is the third card in the tarot deck) rules threes in the tarot. The Empress is the supernal mother and thus nurtures new beginnings just as the threes in each of the tarot suits suggest a new beginning begun and initial first steps made.

 

To round out the discussion, the third rune, Thurisaz, tells us that we’ve made the right choices and taken the correct steps to put ourselves in the right place and the right time but now the best action is to take no action at all. Typically you might draw this rune after a magickal working, a tarot reading, or something as mundane as ajob interview. You’ve done all you can so now relax and trust in yourself and the universe.

 

The Magic square of the Sun is from Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa’s book, “De Occulta Philosophia

These repetitions of sixes are reminiscent of how the Dome of the Rock in Jerusalem is 666 nautical miles from the Kaaba in Mecca.

 

Ddw109i  arlock is a noun

for sorcerers, summoners

of witchy renown.

I’ve included some text from one of our lessons. The lesson today just happened to be on choosing your magickal name.

 

 

…As you surf the web and get aquatinted with Wicca and Paganism, you may have noticed some of the names by which many of us go by. These are called magickal names. Those who enter the Craft prefer to choose a new name—one that separates their mundane from their magickal selves.

 

Many Wiccans and pagans choose a secret name for themselves that it is used only during rituals. The use of a magickal name helps you to separate your mind from the everyday world and prepares you for the supernatural work.

 

Sometimes a magickal name can be everything to a pagan. It means the difference between coming out of the broom closet or remaining there. Some pagans choose to go by their given names. Yet these are few. They are lucky to be able to be open about their religion without worrying how it will affect their families, relations with other people, and jobs.

 

Many witches have two names; one for correspondence and writing, and another for their private rituals. If you are thinking of acquiring a magickal name, I suggest you start using one name first. You need time to get to know your “new” you. Once you feel comfortable with yourself as a pagan, then you might want another one. There may be a time when you may feel that you have “outgrown” your magickal name and it is time to change it.

 

Who Chooses Your Magickal Name

 

The answer to this question depends greatly upon the situation the witch or pagan is in. Solitary witches, like me, choose their own magickal names by themselves. By this, I mean that there is no other person involved in the process (except the Goddess if the witch does a ritual for a name. The solitary witch uses one or several methods to choose his/her magickal name. They might change their magickal names accordingly to their needs as they grow in the Craft.

 

In coven environment, it varies by coven and tradition. In many covens the initiate acquires a magickal name through a vision quest. Yet it will change as he/she raises within the ranks of the coven. There are covens in which your magickal name is given by your mentor/teacher; or sometimes your mentor/teacher adds another part to the magickal name you have already chosen. Some covens allow you to have two names; a ceremonial one used within the coven, and another known only to the Goddess/God, your mentor/teacher, and you.

 

How to Choose Your Magickal Name

 

Choosing your magickal name won’t be easy. You will want something individual and something special that is unique to only you; something by which only you will be known. This is a difficult task because so many people share the world with us. Some people claim more than one name as a way to safeguard their individuality. Variations of your name can make it special; a different pronunciation or different spelling can change the ordinary to the extraordinary.

 

You name will paint a picture of how you see yourself. Look through the eyes of Deity and take a long look at the real you. Let the beauty within yourself give you inspiration .Your name might already be chosen in the back of your mind. Just set it free.

 

Some Native Americans believe a vision quest is helpful when choosing a new name. In the vision quest you take yourself away from your natural habitat and wait for a sign. A person on a vision quest might suddenly see an animal or a bird, such as a crow, and decide to adopt the name “Crow” with a unique addition such as “Standing Crow” which describes the action of the bird when they noticed it. If one were to translate this name into another language than a unique name would be the result.

 

Many of us feel a connection to a single animal; some even feel connected to more than one. Do try meditating with a focus on one of the Spirits for guidance.

 

Here is a list of some basic ideas that I hope will help and guide you when choosing your name. How you choose your name is own decision (of course!), these are only ideas I’ve noticed have been helpful to some.

 

  • Don’t choose a name that belongs to someone in your family, or the name of a friend. Remember individuality! You want something that belongs only to you, something you give yourself as a special gift. If you decide that you would like to incorporate a name of a dear relative or friend into your special name, perhaps you should consider putting a slightly different twist on whatever their title was. For example, if your Grandmother’s name was Violet , choosing a name like Viola might give you the individual edge you need while still keeping up with the old.
  • Choose a name that you are comfortable with. If you are someone who enjoys correcting people’s pronunciation every time they call your name, then a name like “Gwyddion” might not work for you. If you prefer something simple, but not too traditional, Don or Deon could work quite well.
  • Research the names you find interesting carefully. Examine cultural references to study their original meanings. Your name should holds significance with you. Make sure you’re happy with it, do not compromise! Another suggestion is finding names in different languages to express the same concept. For instance, you could name yourself after the foxglove. Foxglove is a flower but in Gaelic the name might look like this … Marian na mna sithe.. and translates as: “thimble of the faerie woman” So Miaran is thimble… Original yes?
  • Make a list of all your possible names and their meanings, and as you narrow your choices, cross out each name that is not selected. Once you have about four or five names, ask a close friend for their opinion. Consider consulting your family for their opinion as well. Never forget that the name should represent you. You have the final say in whatever you choose.
  • When you finally select your name, use it proudly. Whether you use it in ritual, as a private reference to yourself or even if you only use it on the internet, remember it always and cherish it as a special gift.
  • Last but not least, do not add the title Lady or Lord to your name.  This title is just that and is reserved for those who have achieved the level of second degree or higher. It is considered an affront to those who have worked hard to achieve the title to have it used by those who have not earned it.

 

Spell Your Magickal Name

 

Okay, you may have chosen a magickal name already. Now, you have noticed that many magickal names are spelled as one word. Examples:  SilverHawk, CrystalWater, NightOwl, FreeEagle. But, is this really necessary? No, one word or two, as long as you are comfortable with the name that is all that counts.

 

Be careful about odd spellings. Others may not be able to understand how your name is spelled or sounds and your magical name will often be misspelled and or mispronounced….

 

In addition to the above methods for determining a magickal name you can use the Kabalistic reduction method (numerology). Pick a correspondence such as your birthdate, nickname, or given name or some magickal or mundane aspect which is important to or in some way defines yourself.

 

First, you assign numbers to letters as described in the below list.

 

1= A,J,S
2= B,K,T
3= C,L,U
4= D,M,V
5= E,N,W
6= F,O,X
7= G,P,Y
8= H,Q,Z
9= I,R

 

Next, pick your correspondence. Let’s use my name and birthdate for instance:

 

11/23/1958 becomes 1 + 1 + 2 + 3 + 1 + 9 + 5 + 8 = 30.

 

Since for purposes of numerological reduction we generally (11, 21, and 33 are exceptions but can be treated like other multi-digit numerals for this exercise) can’t have multi-digit numbers, 30 becomes

3 + 0 = 3.

 

Now let’s look at the numbers associated with the letters in my name:

 

D  U  I R     G W A L C H M A I

4+3+ 9+9  + 7+ 5+ 1+ 3+3+8+4+ 1+9 =  66 = 6 + 6 = 12 = 1 + 2 = 3

 

My chosen magickal name and birthdate are numerologically balanced.

 

I’ve attached a program which I wrote that handles the math and even suggests what to do should your chosen name not balance numerologically with your chosen correspondence. Let’s say you chose Autumn Wind as your magical name (the name of one of my students) and it doesn’t work with your birthdate or whatever correspondence you’ve chosen, you could always try an alternate spelling such as Autumn Wynd , Autumn Wynde, etc.

2013 – Blue Moon in Aquarius

2013 – lughnasadh

Sleep I can’t; therefore I rant.

First, a big frak you goes out to the state of Georgia (Georgia, in general, can just burn as far as I’m concerned) claims examiner who initially denied my unemployment claim. I hope that bitch (no offense meant to female dogs) gets fired for her incompetence and she in turn can’t collect unemployment due to some otFUCK YOU GEORGIAher claims examiner.

Secondly, frak you [insert vile corporation’s name here] and that self-righteous bitch (again, no offense meant to female dogs) in HR that had me terminated and put me in this situation in the first place just because [same smegma corporate name inserted in last set of brackets] wanted to cut back on salaries. Yeah, you didn’t think I heard that call to the headhunter for someone at about half my salary.

Ultimately, I prevailed in appeal but had attorney’s fees (which I shouldn’t have needed to hire an attorney to get what was mine to begin with–so fuck you again GDOL.) In my attorney’s words, “that claim examiner was an idiot.” There’s definitely no shortage of stupid in the state of Georgia.

Now, lest you think me misogynistic, my bosses here at the new job in Maine (Maine, I love you; can’t wait for Fall and Winter) are all women and they love my work. Guess it was just [evil, greedy, corporation’s name here] greed, desperation, and failed leadership that curtailed my success.

As I said before, I love Maine. The state is verdant and beautiful. The people here (once you get past their tendency to be obtuse) have a very different mindset—they actually care about their environment and preserving their forests, wetlands, and wildlife. I love the work at the State.

There are some drawbacks. I miss my wife. Moreover, everyone knows I miss the dogs. They would love it here. Also with the added expense of maintaining two households, we’ll be just maintaining and not really saving anything. However, with so many out of work (thanks to a short-sighted repugnican congress) I’m thankful to be working and not being homeless.

In the coming weeks I’ll write more about my travels, travails, and adventures Down East. And, as Richard Dreyfus said in “The Goodbye Girl”,

I am dedicated to [the ] art[s magickal] and my craft. I value what I do… I am now going inside my room to meditate away my hostility toward [Georgia idiots]. Personally, I don’t think it can be done.

Okay, so maybe I paraphrased a little

2013 – Full Mead Moon

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